chibimaddy

When I first began sculpting, I did so completely for my own happiness and creativity.

I enjoyed myself, and delighted in the ability to express my imagination through a 3d medium. It wasnt until the year 2002 that I was invited to join a sculpting group.

I was so excited that there were others out there who shared my same passion, so I immediately joined with great excitement. I spent a couple of years being members of various doll and sculpting groups and met some very wonderful people who were very helpful and encouraging. During this time, is also when I began to create my espirit glen tutorial site, for new dollmakers who needed some information to get started, and to allow them to have enough success to sustain their willpower to continue.

It was at the beginning of the year 2003 when I began having panic attacks. I would wake up each day wondering how terrible I would feel before I could go back to bed again.

Some time in 2004 I began to back away from my sculpting/dollmaking groups. I knew I didnt have the spirit to continue to be a member who contributed. I realized that in being a participating (very active) member in these forums, I had inadvertently changed my style to fit more within the norm of what everyone thought was beautiful. And the more I strived for perfection the more of my creative spirit was waning, as well as the deeper my depression was becoming.

In May of 2005 I gave myself a great birthday gift. I gave myself the freedom to express my creativity once again, and kicked the conforming spirit out the door.

This is when the Chibis were born. All my little creatures were going to have personality, MY personality. Fun loving, mischievous, goofy, ornery, and sometimes feeling sad, lonely, and hoping to be loved. If I made a fairy, she was going to be up to something inside her little head, and she was going to have BIG eyes, chubby, with a wide mouthed grin.....like me.

And to my happy surprise, my Chibis seemed to be liked. The rewards I received in my heart were worth much more than the money. They did not bring in prestige or admiration, but those who did purchase from me said they felt happiness, and sweetness, and that was wonderful!

Making my Chibis made me feel like I was giving as much as I was receiving. I really do love people, and love the feelings of childhood, and share in that innocent open hearted faith in the goodness of the heart. And my Chibis express this trust.

craft interests: crochet, embroidery, gifts, home decorating, jewelry making, knitting, memory making, paper crafts, restyle, sewing, polymer clay, needle sculpting, computer

my personal website:
http://www.espiritglen.com

my etsy page:
http://www.bluefuzzyslippers.com/chibitude

Member Since: 12/10/2008